Daiki stared and listened to what he had to say, starting to feel even worse for her feelings. This was just...
She shouldn't feel this way about the guy she started dating, right? Daiki should really learn to trust people more but the ability to do so wasn't there anymore. There was no way at all to prove he was the one who murdered Roni, or was even involved in the murders at all, but still she couldn't help it. How could she?
"...Huh?" She asked, surprised by his agreement to her accusations. She was about to apologize /again/ about it, but then he said all of that. To be honest, the blonde expected him to react much differently than that. Why was he...
She let out a surprised yell when the blonde suddenly found that her soul gem... Wasn't on her anymore. What, where...
Her eyes were wide as she gazed at him, her heart now beating fast and her face pale... Why was he...?
"Wha... Lastien!?" she suddenly yelled, a mixture of surprise and fear.
'More like an idiot for trusting me'.
Her heart completely sank at that last response. No... He...
She was right? That couldn't be! Why would he... Why would he do such a thing. But, if this meant she was right about him then... That meant he was one of them...
He killed Roni. He was helping Abhaya Aghanashini. It all finally dawned on her and just as small teardrop trickled down her cheek, all that fear, shock and anguish seemed to vanish and be replaced by... Complete anger and hatred.
That's why she glared daggers at him with probably the most hateful look she ever had. "Y-you... You..." It seemed that when you suddenly have your soul stolen away from you, your brain reacts quicker than normal. "Y-YOU..." Daiki couldn't even finish her sentence.
She was still close and fast enough to straight up tackle him to the ground... Which she did, and hopefully it would catch him off guard and make him drop her gem. But not without attempting to grip her hands around his neck as well as a natural reflex. "S-stop... Please..." She said in a low voice. "You don't have to do this..."
Was she going to die now?
... Well... If she was, then at least now Daiki could be with her friends again.
Lastien had expected Daiki to be utterly shocked by what he did. He knew how she would react to his sudden betrayal. And that glare. Oh, that glare. He just knew he crossed that boundary of really pissing that girl off. While he was prepared for a strike back of any kind, he hadn’t expected a full on tackle to the goddamn ground. Still holding onto that soul gem tightly, Daiki had thrown him down to the ground and he let a grunt as he hit the floor with his head. Ow. Freaking ow. Lastien had tried to get back up, only to have Daiki just sitting on him and aiming for his neck. So instead, Lastien turned and tossed around as much as possible to get her off, his free hand slapping those hands away from touching his neck because he was going to need to speak if she was saying shit to him.
“Don’t you think it’s a little too late to be saying that to me?” He hissed, glaring back up at Daiki. Lastien’s head was pounding because that hit to the floor -really- hurt. But he wasn’t going to let that deter his plans. He needed to stay conscious enough to either kill her or just SOMETHING. But he was smirking now. Finally there was nothing to hide. FINALLY he didn’t have to lie because Daiki was more than likely not going to live through this. “You were right to doubt me~” His eyes seemed to glimmer, the boy finally using his strength to shove her off and attempt to get back to his feet while he could. “I did kill Roni. I’ve killed a lot more than just her. You wouldn’t even believe what I have done since that…day.”
Fuck though. Why oh why did Daiki have to remind him of Roni constantly. This felt just like what happened at that warehouse. Betrayal. All he was good for was betraying everyone he had become friends with. And for what purpose? Roni had been because she pissed him off and she was just sooo stupid. It was with her death that he managed to move on with no regrets. And yet lately, those regrets were coming back. Daiki, another stupid and way to trusting girl. She acted just like Roni in the regard that she knew shit was happening around her, and yet would completely believe in her friend who was such a huge suspect in the terrible things going on. And that was what pained Lastien to no end. Both had trusted him, no matter what others said. Both had cared for him and relied on him for help and advice. Daiki had relied on him more than ever and had even called him a boyfriend. This hurt. This hurt a lot for the boy.
He needed to eliminate these feelings yet again and move on. He absolutely NEEDED to. Roni had not forgiven him at that time. With those hateful eyes of hers, why would Daiki forgive him either?
Why should she forgive him? Daiki should hate him, she should want to kill him until there was nothing left of him. A large part of her did feel that way, but then at the same time she just... Couldn't hate him.
Oh, right. Cause this blonde girl in front of him /wasn't Roni/. No matter how much the two had in common. Or maybe she really was just way too stupid and naive for her own good, even as her gem was about to be crushed right in front of her. When Daiki felt herself get thrown off, she also quickly got back to her feet but didn't strike again. She kept her stance and kept glaring. Yes, Lastien, you definitely crossed a line at this rate.
Suddenly, all that hatred she felt washed away and was replaced once again, Daiki now felt defeated. She knew Lastien was stronger than her...
She just shook her head as he spoke, about killing more after Roni, about being right to accuse him... Why.
Just... Why!? Why couldn't there be more /good/ magi around that didn't feel the need to murder others. She sighed.
"...Why..." She whispered. "You didn't have to do that... You don't have to be this way." Brown eyes glimmered with tears. So, he was in that evil group, then? With Abhaya and William?
"Please stop... Just, give me my gem back." Oh? What was this? Daiki ACTUALLY feared death? Well that was new, the blonde didn't want want to die by the hands of her evil boyfriend, to be honest. Well... Most likely ex-boyfriend now. But Daiki knew the possibility of her living through this was very close to a zero percent.
She was so dumb. Why did she have to rely on so many people all this time? All they did was die or betray her, as proven now. The only people she knew that hadn't done either were all probably set up for death or evil at some point, or she wasn't close enough friends with to rely on them as much.
"Is this really what you want?" She meant murdering everyone, of course. "Is this really what you had in mind when you became a magi? It'll only come back and haunt you..." She looked up at him, more tears streaming down her face.
Daivor would be disappointed.
“Oh, but I had to kill her.” Lastien’s grin widened, now on his feet and holding onto that gem in his hand, peering down at it ever now and again to make sure it was still there and safe. “There was a very good reason that she and Vincent had to die. Or rather, they weren’t supposed to die at first. But things changed when someone went off and died.” He shrugged. “The new plan had worked out much better in our favor though.”
Lastien’s eyes fell on Daiki. She knew she was in deep shit and he enjoyed that defeated expression of hers. It was actually a huge load off his shoulders to finally be able to speak about everything he’s done, even if said person hearing everything was pretty much going to die. But all this shit had just been bottling itself up inside of him for a long, long time now. The fact that he could finally brag and not be so silent…it was relieving in a way. Though not for Daiki of course.
His expression turned into that of pity for the moment. Maybe she’d understand his struggles once he told everything, yes? It’s not like she could run away without her gem anyways. “My intentions were pure in the beginning, if you must know. You know the majority of my wish, to heal someone. That was innocent enough, wasn’t it?” Lastien hadn’t wished for anything to boost himself other than to save what he thought was important at the time. There was no evil in his mind at that time, that was for sure.
“But there is a reason I had to result to murder. It was for our survival. You, me, and every other magi here. Those two had to die for us to still be alive right now.”
'Oh, but I had to kill her.'
Daiki was no longer phased by that smirk on his face, she instead simply crossed her arms and glared at him softly. The blonde was never going to trust him ever again at this rate. What good reason could they possibly have to murder other magi anyway? What could possibly be good about any of these people!?
That's a question that would simply ahve to go unanswered if she didn't get out of this situation alive. Daiki may not hate the redhead, but she /REALLY/ disliked him. His face, that SMILE, made her want to puke.
Was he bragging? That was just pathetic. No, Lastien, she wasn't going to understand you. She could never understand how resorting to ending another person's life would solve anything no matter how much they pissed you off.
No matter how much you disliked them...
If they didn't actually do anything to hurt you, then you shouldn't attack them. They had a life, too.
"...At the beginning." They obviously weren't anymore. "Yeah, that seems like a pretty innocent wish but... Look at you now." She shook her head and the hatred on her face became more visible, "but I don't see how KILLING them could have possibly been a good solution, Lastien! Roni and Vincent didn't seem like the type of people to hurt others or threaten lives..." They were good people...
Or... Were they? Daiki didn't know anymore. But Lastien wasn't innocent, either.
She really wished there was a way to get her gem back and just... Run out. Get the hell out of this place. She wanted to run right now, but... She couldn't do that without her gem, of course.
That question would not go unanswered. Lastien was ready to state his reasoning, though Daiki may not accept his answer of course. About the other cause of getting rid of Vincent and Roni, besides the personal dislike for Roni. This was all sort of a test for Lastien. He wanted to see how Daiki reacted. Whether she believed him or not, what she would do once she knew the truth, everything. Daiki was his little lab rat right now so that he may see what other magi would think from this kind of information.
“My reasoning is not because of how they were. It was their status. One was a very well-known and helpful veteran. The other was a popular magi that was the veteran’s girlfriend. Everyone knew who they were, so it was perfect.” Lastien stared down at the gem, looking it over in his hands. It was a shame such a beautiful gem would either be destroyed or shattered. Either by him or her transforming into a witch. He would much prefer her becoming a witch though.
Lastien looked back over to Daiki though, a dead serious look on his face. “You can choose to believe me or not, but everything I said earlier about what happens after a soul gem turns dark was a lie. I only told you all of that to make you think it was a good idea to let yourself go and let your gem go black.” He paused for a moment, now going back to his point of Roni and Vincent. “That’s what needed to happen from those two deaths. What we needed was for magi to believe there was no hope. They needed to feel distressed and depressed over their deaths to turn their soul gems black. And it sure did work.”
He was now smiling again. That sinister smile. “There have been a lot more witches around lately, don’t you think? The amount of witches doubled…or even tripled once those two died. A lot of magi had gotten depressed and their soul gems turned black. Can you take a guess what happened to all of them?”
His answer, his reasoning as to how it helped... It didn't answer a damn things. So what they were popular, was that just it? Lastien decided to help kill them because people liked them? Was he really that much of an asshole, was he really that selfish?
That was why. It still didn't answer one question though. Daiki now looked down, her eyes dead and empty, tears dried on her face. "...And how does that help our survival? You just said you did it to make people distressed and have no hope... How does that help anything in the end?" She shook her head. It didn't make sense at all to her, but then again she was just too much of a good-goodie magi to understand how making people suffer and die was a good idea.
Daiki expected what he said to be a lie at this point, after taking her gem and admitting to murders with that damn smirk, also looking like he was about to crush her gem- her soul and life... It wasn't a surprise at all.
He couldn't possibly mean... That all those magi that had disappeared, all those magi that had fought to save people, fought to save themselves, those who were once normal human beings turned into those monsters that they had been fighting against everyday!?
No, he... Had to be lying again. He had to be, he had already lied to her before, right? This was just a trick. This was just a trick...
But a small part of her told her, very quietly, 'it all makes sense now, doesn't it?' ...Shit. Shitshitshit!
BB... Is that what happened to her!? How long did he know this!? What was going through her head when she told him that the bee witch reminded her of BB? She knew it... She fucking knew it, godDAMMIT!
Daiki covered her mouth with one hand, eyes wide and hunched over slightly. "H-how... Where did you hear... Something like that?" The blonde's voice was shaky, as fear and grief took over her entire being at that very moment.
Lastien had just waited without saying a word. He just stood there and waited for her to realize what he meant. She couldn’t have been that stupid not to see it, now that he had thrown all the information out to her. And once that expression of hers changed at the realization of what he meant, he -knew-. Congratulations Daiki. You have finally figured it out.
He did not sneer or smile at her miserable expression though. In fact, Lastien looked rather tired for a moment. Was he starting to get tired of all this? The fact that they were magi that were just prolonging their inevitable death? They would all come to an end eventually. Whether it be murdered by soul gem, despairing, whatever. There was no way out of this magi game they had all entered. They would all eventually be doomed to whatever cruel fate awaited them.
His voice was soft now, not as harsh and uncaring as he had been. “Miguel. Me and other members learned from him our fate. This should all make sense to you now, right?” Lastien sighed, remembering the previous witches he has fought. There had been quite a lot of them. “Remember months ago when we found that Lily girl in that witch labyrinth? And how none of us were sure why she went in alone? That’s because she had despaired. She became a witch and our bodies are left behind somewhere in the labyrinth.”
Lastien knew what Daiki was thinking about though. Her closer friends that had suddenly disappeared. “Your friends, BB and Kae, also shared the same fate. They disappeared because they despaired. That really tough witch we fought that was identical to a bee? That had to have been your friend. You know it.”
Now looking more tired than ever, he just kept staring down at that soul gem of Daiki’s. Slowly watching it to see how close she was to despairing after hearing all of this. “That is why we killed certain popular magi. To distress the magi population and cause more despairs. We were lacking on witches while magi are constantly being contracted. What else could we have done other than try to provide a quick source of witches?” There were no lies here. Lastien was telling the full truth for once. It was up to Daiki to believe him or not.
“Basically…we live off the despair of our friends. The only way we can live is to destroy our friends who have become witches.”
Daiki was tired too, of everything. This was all just a game, a stupid game to see who would die first and who survive until the end. Stupid cats. She really did want to rip them apart at this rate.
Congratulations Daiki... You finally know.
The blonde never took the time to notice his softened expression, or his tired expression, she was just... Too wrapped up in it all, this was way too much to take in all of a sudden. How could he do such horrible things? How could those cats do such horrible things? Did they know what was going on? How could Lastien use such horrible methods and feel proud for it?
Killing Roni and Vincent to make everyone despair and get more grief seeds... Sure, it helped people live, but at the same time was it really? While people were living, others were dying, it all balanced out and in the end didn't fix any problems. Were they just trying to get the grief seeds for themselves?
The blonde believed him. She believed his words. And she hated it.
Miguel... BB... Kae... Everyone. They were all either dead or a witch. Or both. Was that really how magi were supposed to survive? Killing their once good friends for themselves? Then if they didn't, they just die or become like those witches themselves? It was a cruel, cruel cycle she would never be able to grasp, that's for sure...
Yet, after all of this, Daiki still wanted her soul gem back from him. She still wanted to do something heroic. There was so much grief yet so much ambition. How was that possible at this point?
The girl said nothing, and just stood there, still too shocked to even let out a small whimper or sound of any sort in response.
Too bad for Daiki, but Lastien was running out of patience. He had said what he needed to and was very much disappointed. He had been really hoping for Daiki’s despair. All of this terrifying information was supposed to make her despair and just give up. Yet she was still there and standing. She still had to have been thinking some kind of positive thought throughout all of this. How though? All of her friends were dead, Lastien had betrayed her, and now she knew the secret of wishes.
Lastien was displeased with this outcome.
He now backed up to the nearest wall, cradling the soul gem in his hands. If she would not despair…then he would still win. The only reason Lastien had gone on to explain everything was because he had no intention to allow her to leave and spout about all of this to anyone. That and…she deserved to know the truth at least. Looking back at her, that smirk had come back. They were just about done.
“Any final words?”
She wasn't exactly thinking the most positive things, Lastien. In fact, almost right after he asked for her final words, she just... Broke. She fell to her knees and covered her eyes, bawling until she couldn't shed a single tear anymore. Fine... Fine. She was going to die now? So what? Everything was already so screwed up she didn't care anymore. She couldn't do anything heroic at this point, she couldn't, she just... How could she do anything heroic after she had already been practically murdering other magi herself? How could she possibly make up for that...?
At least she would be with her friends now. There was some good in this whole experience. She could reunite with them all. Sorry Aaron.
Oh... God no... She didn't want to die.
She didn't want to die. She didn't want to die.
But at the same time, she did. When the girl finally calmed down, she stared up at him, sad brown eyes peering into his blue ones, and the girl stood up again.
Her eye twitched but with a small smile, it wasn't a sinister or cruel one but a sad one. She really did kind of pity him. Maybe this was because he lost a lot of people too? Maybe it became too much for him and he was driven into doing this. Like he said, he started out innocent enough, right? Unless that was a lie, too.
Pathetic. Absolutely pathetic. But so was she.
"Just so you know... I don't hate you."
Daiki was telling the truth. They were enemies, she wanted to kill him, she wanted to scream at him, she wanted to strangle him, but somewhere deep inside her, the girl couldn't hate him. She didn't know why. The blonde finally let out a genuine smile, "...fine, Lastien. But before I go..." Her smile twisted and the girl was suddenly up in front of him "I'll give you a goodbye kiss." She drew her arm back, and threw her fist at the boy's face with as much force as she possibly could before he could step away.
There. That would be her act of heroism. It was better than nothing.
Oh god. Daiki was just sobbing and Lastien actually REALLY felt bad for a moment. This wasn’t the same as his other murders. There were no evil team members around to help out and give support for his actions. There was no Abhaya around to egg him on into doing what he knew he needed to do and killing her right this moment. It was just him. Alone and with that girl that had once trusted him, though had to have hated and loathed him by now. Lastien KNEW he had to get this over with, but oh man. The crying girl was stopping him from crushing that gem then and there. He did have some kind of morals left dammit.
It didn’t help that she started to suddenly smile so sadly and tell him that she hadn’t hated him. That was impossible. Daiki was bullshitting him and there was NO WAY she just couldn’t hate him after all he’s done. After what he’s about to do. That had to be a complete lie.
So there Lastien stood, doing nothing as she slowly approached. His hand clenched around the soul gem the closer she got, ready to break the thing the moment she tried to make a reach for it. He watched carefully, a curious expression. Good…bye kiss? And then he saw it. That twisted smile and oh god. Lastien had been prepared for a grab for the soul gem, BUT NOT THIS. As soon as the fist connected with his face, all he could feel was pain and his eyes squeezed shut from the impact. “FUCK!” He yelled, screaming profanities at her now. FUCK that had hurt. Anger and rage coursing through his head, the boy threw the soul gem against the wall as hard as he could, letting the damn thing smash and scatter into hundreds of tiny fragments. That would fucking teach her. Daiki would be dead now and there would be no remorse after that.
She didn't care if she died. She didn't care anymore. Daiki wanted to see her friends, even if they gave her sour looks, it hurt being alone, especially after the person you grew to love so much hated you, and finding out that everything she had done since the beginning was just some pathetic game. Daiki was going to turn into a witch if she escaped, anyway, or just smash her gem herself. It was best to just end it now rather than possibly stop him with words.
But she wasn't lying. Until the end, the girl couldn't hate him.
Who knew, maybe if she had somehow escaped this house with her gem in tact he would go to his little group and tell them about her, and she'd end up just like Roni and Vincent.
Her smile never faded. Right after that satisfying punch in the face, she knew it was over. Lastien would be pissed and break her soul gem, but that was fine. Maybe she couldn't fulfill that wish of hers to do something heroic, but... That was fine too. There was no way she could do anything truly good anymore.
As the redhead screamed and swore at her, still in pain after her own act of violence, she dashed over to him and grabbed her by the shoulders, that sinister smile changed back to a soft one and she was... Hugging him?
"Thank you." The girl whispered. "I really don't hate you."
That also wasn't a lie.
Then it happened. Her gem shattered upon making contact with the wall and as she just stared at him, keeping eye contact... That smile. That soft, innocent smile never disappeared as her eyes dulled and all life left in them drained completely.
She slowly fell over and landed on the floor with a large 'thump' sound, and the room was left in complete and utter silence. But as the blonde lied there, she finally felt peace for once. The nice, peaceful sleep of death.
Finally... There were no more nightmares.
Lastien just froze. No no FUCK NO. FUCKING why the FUCK did she do that at the last second? By that time it was already too late and Lastien was just staring back into her eyes as they instantly dulled and shut closed. Her body had just fallen as if it were a ragdoll and… For a brief moment, Daiki had hugged him and he had felt her warmth. She had hugged him and told him she hadn’t hated him. Why. Why why why WHY.
The boy clutched his chest and dug his nails into his skin, just feeling pain and such shitty emotions. Lastien did not ask for that. He might have asked for forgiveness and care long before this point, but not now. NOT when he had JUST shattered her soul. His face hurt, his heart hurt, everything hurt. Why...why couldn't she have just died hating him like everyone else?How much longer could he keep on doing this?